Night Walks with Andrew

Andrew is a vampire. At least from what I can tell when Andrew watchs Buffy, he loves that show. Now my accusation of this is not because I have seen him drink the blood of anyone, but for the sheer fact that we walk the most at night. He loves it then. He says its quiet, yet it lets him still be a part of the city, but in a way that no one can see him--- he says he is always hiding and in the dark, he can open his eyes to be part of the world he misses. I do not understand him on this, just that I can feel every ounce of pain he puts into the pavement.

And you know, I like our evening walks too. He says he is going to teach me to run off leash and will get me a collar so I can be seen at night too. That excites me. Andrew may talk a lot to himself, but he also thinks a lot about other people and even me and I think that helps him through whatever he is going through. He says he is struggling, says his brain broke and in his heart is this desire to hurt people for making him feel this way. He says their names outloud every day. Gary Buckley Woolever, Andrew Beaton, Jon Humbert, Tim Christine. He says more but those are the ones he repeats the loudest.

I do not know what he means by hurting them, and I am uncertain if he even knows. But something in saying it helps him through his day. But I can see he is in some kind of fight. I see an ugly in his eyes at times, when he says their names---its different when he cries and screams without any sound ---what I see then is someone really hurt---angry--but just lost. But in a moment,, I can see him change, often when we start playing or when he is teacihng me one of his many rules, I see his face soften, his eyes smile and then all I feel is love---- he is confusing, and I will stand with him on all four paws no matter who he is, but i hope the kind one wins. I like him best.

Seven and Andrew evening walk 2020 Chicago