this photo comes to us from Chicago, July of 2022. Seven and one of his favorite dogs, Paisely. Now keep in mind, they were close --clearly, really close. Seven and Andrew with friend, Paisley in Gold Coast, Chicago. 2022

Andrew is a vampire. At least from what I can tell when Andrew watchs Buffy, he loves that show. Now my accusation of this is not because I have seen him drink the blood of anyone, but for the sheer fact that we walk the most at night. He loves it then. He says its quiet, yet it lets him still be a part of the city, but in a way that no one can see him--- he says he is always hiding and in the dark, he can open his eyes to be part of the world he misses. I do not understand him on this, just that I can feel every ounce of pain he puts into the pavement. And you know, I like our evening walks too. He says he is going to teach me to run off leash and will get me a collar so I can be seen at night too. That excites me. Andrew may talk a lot to himself, but he also thinks a lot about other people and even me and I think that helps him through whatever he is going through. He says he is struggling, says his brain broke and in his heart is this desire to hurt people for making him feel this way. He says their names outloud every day. Gary Buckley Woolever, Andrew Beaton, Jon Humbert, Tim Christine. He says more but those are the ones he repeats the loudest. I do not know what he means by hurting them, and I am uncertain if he even knows. But something in saying it helps him through his day. But I can see he is in some kind of fight. I see an ugly in his eyes at times, when he says their names---its different when he cries and screams without any sound ---what I see then is someone really hurt---angry--but just lost. But in a moment,, I can see him change, often when we start playing or when he is teacihng me one of his many rules, I see his face soften, his eyes smile and then all I feel is love---- he is confusing, and I will stand with him on all four paws no matter who he is, but i hope the kind one wins. I like him best. Seven and Andrew evening walk 2020 Chicago

I try to think I am, but in doing so I take away my greatest strength --- fear --and my ability to overcome it through sheer determination. Superheros may be powerful, but they aren't brave in the way any of us are when we roll up our sleeves, do whats gonna hurt and through the pain and the fear, we repeat that process again, and again. I guess this is important for me to remind myself because this past week i have been reallly beating myself up. Telling myself I am weak, I am a loser, I am a nobody and I am just worthless. I keep citing all of the things I have gotten wrong lately and how powerless I really am to the greater being of life -----and it has wore me down. But something in me today reminded myself that everything i just listed is a normal part of being a human being who isnt just struggling, but is trying. And regardless if I fail, or lose, or find myself back here next year --- I woke up each morning trying to change my life and that counts more then anything ---so, in todays note to self ----- Andrew, you are not superman ---and that is truly, truly, truly A-fucking-okkkkkkk. Andrews Note to self July 2026

Sometimes the best thing to say is nothing.

looking at this old video I cant help be remember what i used to be like --- even during a time when things werent great and so much was unkown, i turned to humor for myself and others. i wonder what it will take for me to get back to that --- anyway, if you want a low level laught click the image for my tiktok.

Video on TikTok to Come - please note this is not real -- unless you are KOMO and youd believe anything thats not the truth --

Video on TikTok to come --- please note for the slowl inclined --this is a parody. Or is it.

The entrance WOOOOOO _EEEEEEEEEEEE. They just let me into a room I have never been! And boy did I take off like a lightening bolt! Wall, wall, floor, woop, think that’s my pee )—yup, definitely my pee, all over these things just in my way. Oh wait, looking up I see a face, I must lick him-)----not just a little a LOOTTTT. Is he gonna run into walls with me? Lets find out! Wall, wall, wall floor-----I'm too fast for you!!!!!! Ok, back to that face. You know, I kind of like it. His eyes say hi and they feel like a place I keep dreaming of so lets give this face a try. Hi, the face said. I know they call you Molly, but we will need to come up with something new. In the meantime, I'm Andrew, your new human. I licked his face some more as he laughed, nice to meet you, i showed him. First home ever After a 20 minute ride, we were dropped off in front of a brick building, U shaped from what I can tell. Its older, surrounded by other buildings that looked like it, but this one seems uniaue. And then I hear him say it, his is our home little lady. Home? I said under my breath. I have never had a place to call home before. This feels ni---- OH, just ran into a fence. sevens first day in her new home = Chicago IL